When I was knee-deep in graduate school my professor told me that there was no such thing as balancing everything that you had going on in your life. She said to think of it as a juggling act instead. She said to think of all the different aspects of your life as balls and you constantly have to juggle them all at once and at some point balls will inevitably drop from time to time. Me, the naive grad student who was going to conquer the world in her sleep, thought pssshh yeah whatever, none of my balls are EVER going to drop. I've got this.
Umm yeah, maybe I could handle the whole grad school thing, but the whole juggling motherhood, a husband, a career, friends, family, advising a sorority, a household, and my health is a whole new ballgame. I SUCK at juggling all of this. This is a crazy busy time at work right now for both me and Nick. So it is very easy to become consumed in work and have some of it linger into the evening hours, which I hate. I honestly don't know when I cleaned my house last, Hayden's baby book isn't even started, and Nick and I figured out that at least one of us will be gone every evening for the next couple of weeks. Hayden probably thinks we are insane.
On top of all of this, I started a running program in the mornings this summer. Every other morning at 5:15am I go out and do Couch 2 5k. I am registering for a 5K for homecoming this year and I am going to complete it, I have to. The question is, did I wake up at all this week so far to run? That would be a big negative. I suck at life right now. So I WILL be running tonight when Nick gets home from his meetings. Not only does running help out with the lingering baby weight (if I can still claim it as that), but it is also a huge stress reliever for me. So it's a good thing, I just have to wake my lazy a** up in the morning to do it.
Vent over. In the end I know all of this is worth it. We are providing Hayden with a stable home, Nick and I both feel accomplished at work, and someday this will all pay off. But for now, I will keep on juggling and hope to not drop too many balls (at once anyway).